Distracted Destiny
Honestly, this is just an opportunity to get out some things that have been bottled up pretty tight inside. I’ve never found myself this deep into an inward struggle before. It seems as of late that no matter where I turn there it is staring me straight in the face. I can’t remember a time in my life that the prospect of who I’m to become and what I’m to do has been so urgently on my heart. I’ve tried to verbalize these feelings in my heart with no avail & as the tears roll and the sound of the prayer room lingers from the speakers of a borrowed laptop “Son of David have mercy on me, Son of David have mercy on me open my eyes that I may see” it quickly becomes the loudest prayer I can remember with no words leaving my lips “Open My Eyes!”
As I find myself engaged in this battle, on the inside something rises yelling “You’re Distracted!”
dis·tract·ed
[di-strak-tid] –adjective
| 1. | having the attention diverted. |
| 2. | rendered incapable of behaving, reacting, etc., in a normal manner, as by worry, remorse, or the like; irrational; disturbed. |
Have I become distracted in my pursuits again? Has my attention been diverted? Have I been rendered incapable of behaving in a normal manner?
It’s funny there is a vibrant life inside of me I can feel it. A life of joy, love, mission, power & impact. I know God has great plans for the future. I just want more! I’m not satisfied, not content & definitely not OK with where I’m at. Jesus please come I want more, I need more!
2 WEEKS LATER…
I find myself looking back at this non-published post & realizing that it’s really easy for me to get distracted with my present surroundings and circumstances rather than look to the One that has been to my future and back. I think all to often our idea’s and dreams of grandeur get in the way of His will for our lives, we almost get preoccupied with why things aren’t the way we see them with our eyes closed. So I come to this: “Jesus, My passion in life is to know you…” I set my heart to see my distraction turn into pursuit, my frustration fade to fascination! Jesus I want you more. Thank you that you’re gracious with me.
January 11, 2008 at 10:11 pm
so simple yet so powerful… life changing right there… especially since I talked to you before I read this… amazing as always!
January 15, 2008 at 7:19 am
Don, what a heart felt blog. I love the idea that God has been to our destiny and back. That ought to bring the brothers and sisters some comfort. I love your honesty and sincerity and I know The Big Guy Upstairs loves it too. Your amazing! Love you man!